I Would For You
I have been replaying one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard on my phone recently.
It is titled ”I Would For You” and the lyrics just absolutely resonate deep in my heart where I am right now personally.
I have been seeing someone who embodies a lot of the tearful prayers I prayed nearly a year ago. I felt so alone and unheard and not appreciated. So I pleaded and prayed to God for something that was different.
I felt manipulated, rejected, ugly, broken. Think of every awful emotion you can think of when going through a divorce and yep, that about sums up exactly how I was and dejected I felt.
Over the last six months, my heart has been happy. Taken care of. Nurtured. Listened to. Prayers answered. It made healing as a hurt woman much easier.
Having these types of feelings toward someone new is terrifying. The logical part of me says that I need to wait x,y,z amount of time. Someone who was as broken as I was had no business experiencing this kind of connection so soon.
I said this to my friend. Vulnerability is not a strength of mine, so as I started to pull back after exposing myself and my heart, he told me to stay where I was. And he said there is no rule book.
Our feelings are our feelings.
Anyway, back to the song. You need to go download it for yourself and give it a listen. Just really beautiful.
When I prayed that God would open my heart to connect with another man, and to be cared for and not lied to or manipulated, I wanted someone who believed I was worth the effort. That no matter what, they wouldn’t just jump ship when it got difficult or boring or a little muddy. My prayer was much longer than that obviously, but the point is, I don’t really believe in coincidence. And I believe God is calling me to write part of our story.
He, my friend, won’t be revealed yet. I want you to meet him. Believe me. I want to blast his face all over social media because he is that wonderful of a human being and I don’t think it would be right to hide him. Because my goodness, he really is just one of the most amazing human beings on the planet. Every time I think of his character and the kind of man he is, I can’t help but tear up. I don’t even recognize this tough chick who prides herself on not being a cryer or super emotional.
All lies. That has changed recently. Definitely a cryer. And emotional. And a big softie. Fine. I admit it.
But this little journey we have been on? It has been incrediblely beautiful. It was so nice To sit next to him this past Sunday at his church and worship our Savior together. I have longed for that for a really long time.
Usually, the kinds of stories are tell involve helping people live better lives, be more confident, and encourage them in their walk with Jesus.
Telling this kind of story is a little bit out of my comfort zone, because there are never any guarantees.
However, I decided a long time ago that I was going to leap into more uncharted territories and take more chances in this life.
So here we go. Haha!
I want to be inspired by y’all. Share your own stories with your partner. I love hearing how you all connected with your person.