Everyone has a day one.
My day one was back in 2019, the day after I had to ask my husband to leave the home after a discovery was made. Really, everything started to fall apart in April of 2018, but February 15th was day one. It was the day after Valentine’s Day, and that was especially hard, because I love Valentine’s Day.
And I still loved my husband.
Moving forward from day one was harder than I could have ever imagined. I still wanted to make it work. I still wanted him to come back and love me. All of my friends and family were encouraging me and there for me, at least, those who knew what was going on. Most didn’t know because I tried to protect him as much as possible. Even still, typing out this post telling my portion of the story is hard because I don’t want to harm him in any way. This isn’t a post to blast him or to make him out to be the bad guy here.
There are no bad guys in this story. No Villians. Just two people and a history of poor decisions and a marriage that broke.
That was my day one.
I have lost count of exactly how many days, but I have gotten through my day one and then some.
I have had many moments of victories, and quite a few set backs as well. But I am in a better place than I have ever been.
I am healthier.
I am more confident.
I don’t walk on eggshells anymore.
I have a fantastic job.
I get to write without worrying what the other will think.
I can even journal without peace.
I have an incredible community and church.
I am even dating an amazing man, probably one of the most kindest human beings I have ever had the pleasure of getting to know. There is a future I can see for myself and the kids.
Freedom and the ability to make my own decisions.
God showing His goodness and provision. When others proved unfaithful, He consistently proved to be faithful to my heart and my needs.
Day ones are painful, but I am grateful for my day one. Because when I head backwards in my mind to those days, I see now how far I have come. What God has done.
Because God can. Because God cares. Because God sees.
Whereever you may find yourself on your day one. Maybe that day one is today. Walk through it. If you can get through day one, the other days follow and you will get to see what transpires as you walk through your season.
God is good like that.
And you are not alone.
Praying for you,